Purgatory

At times I wonder what sin so great I have committed to deserve such a punishment. I am no angel, but I am not so bad a person either; or so I used to think. At times I wondered what greatness I ever did to be rewarded with finding you. Funny isn’t it? I don’t know whether to laugh or cry. Life takes many turns and mine has tracked down a thorny path. Many times I ask God why choose this for me. I have no answer as of yet. Maybe this dimension is not real. Maybe this is purgatory for me, for some terrible things I have done. It is all I can think at times, as flawed as it sounds, as mad as it is. Paradise was shown to me through my time with you. Hell awaits me from the day I last see you. So now, the in between, must be purgatory! As a child I was always so afraid of it. I always repented any bad things I did and tried so hard to make better deeds, so I never have to go through it. As they say, many times our greatest fears have a way of sneaking into the reality of our lives. Well, I can now say that is true. I console myself by thinking that in another dimension, things turned out different for me and you. V